Quite horrifying

Posted: December 14, 2005 in Uncategorized

That I’ve just realised I am actually completely revolted by my own body. It has failed me in so many ways, and I hate it. The other person who is supposed to love it is now disgusted by it also.

I have so little respect for it I am feeding it junk. Yes, I still go to the gym, but that’s to let the anger out and beat it into submission.

It has failed me and is ugly and ruins things. If only it behaved normally.

It actually makes me feel ill to look at it. Nothing to do with weight, but because of what it has done to me, and how it makes me feel.

I am an insecure freak.

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